Thoughts at 5:09am

Blogging again. It has been a month since I moved here. So far, my journey has been pretty okay. I met a lot of people who have helped me along the way.

I am happily tucked in my new home, with my new room mate.

School is blaaaah. I should change my  attitude towards school. I messed up both of my online exams. For the first one, I got a passing mark, just above the boundary. Well, I didn't study for it so I was quite disappointed. For the second one, I studied over the weekend for it. For three days, I buried myself under the books. And I failed. One more point until I can pass it. So frustrating. Most of it were pictures and slides of different kinds of cells, which I didn't even bother to look at in the book. I am such an idiot. I feel frustrated about it. :( sigh!! Especially when your room mate is a cum laude and get a lot of HDs.

Tomorrow, we are going to skip two subjects and go to nursing homes to submit our resumes. Hopefully, we can find a job already. Fingers crossed and hoping!! Please pray for me!

Prititit!!!

It's that time of the year again. The biggest street party in Cebu. And ofcourse, since this will be my last Sinulog in the next 3 years or so, I didn't miss it for the world. I was sick, so I didn't get to party that much. We were staying at the same spot we had last year. It was like a big reunion, seeing people from highschool and college all over again.
And I will let the pictures do the talking:

Marc Nelson and Rovilson were there. I don't know what they were doing in a public place, but they didn't mind being attacked by fans. Haha

And finally, the life of the party. I don't think Sinulog or any other party would be half as fun if Motha wasn't around. I wish I had her energy and stamina.

Nobody even got wasted nor drunk. It was pure unadulterated fun, natural high! Street parties are just icing to the cake. Let's not forget the true meaning of Sinulog. It's a day to celebrate and thank Him for answering our prayers and for keeping our beloved country safe. Pit Senyor Cebu!!

Sinulog Week.

Had a looong week!! It's Sinulog week! Where shall I start? Well, I'm very happy to be able to complete the novena again this year. I've been doing this in the last 7 years. (Except in 2011 when I was in Australia)

Rain or shine the Basilica was still full despite the unpredictable weather.

And then we had the procession. I was with my family and the weather was perfect. We thought  it was going to rain because of the tropical depression but not a single drop of rain in Cebu. It was very crowded as expected but the wind was cool.

Thank you for always listening to us, our beloved Nino ❤️ You're unconditional love never fails to amaze me. I can't help but become teary eyed, your presence is very overwhelming. Pit Senyor! See you on the streets! :)

Love.

You know he loves you when he doesn't ask anything for himself, but to pray for your dreams to come true. Because he knows how much it means to you.

Bittersweet.

I woke up late today. I wasn't able to attend my 6am - 7:00am class. I set my alarm clock to 5:25pm instead of 5:25am. FML. I finally got the email I was waiting for last night. I felt happy and sad at the same time. I don't know what to expect. It's going to be a long journey and I'm going to have to go through this alone just like what I have been doing in the last 2 years. I feel kind of guilty though, but then again why should I? they don't even think about me anymore. They have moved on with their lives, I should be too. I deserve this.
I had a good cry last night. It finally sunk in. I am going to be away for 2 or 3 years. I won't be able to see Yan and Zib for a long time. :( I can't even imagine it. They were my source of comfort when I was at the lowest point of my life. They made me forget about my problems. It sounds cliche but it's true. 

Well enough about the sentimental posts. I promise to post more happy stuff in the next few days. Today is the first day of my favorite part of the year! :) To anyone who's reading this (if ever I have one hehe) I promise it's going to be a happy week ahead! Viva Pit Senyor! :)

Yes.

God will provide. God will make a way. Believe. 

Two Oh One Four.

Since I can't think of any other topic to blog about, here's the obligatory New Year's Resolution entry. Hehee

2012 wasn't really my year, I locked myself from everyone for several months after I came back from Australia. I lost weight, and as much as I hate to admit it, I was depressed. I realized that no matter how  hard you try, all of your efforts aren't always enough. I got rejected by a job I had my hopes up on and friendships were tested. I have a very trusting personality, if I consider you as my close friend, I would help you in any way I can. So it hurts me most when I am taken for granted and if my efforts aren't appreciated.

But just when I thought that it was all getting worse, I found a job that helped me pick all of my pieces up. It's not as 'good' as the position that I was hoping for, but it turned out to be more than I expected. 

Since then, everything turned 360. 2013 came, I rekindled old friendships and my relationship with God, I spent more time with my family and I gained weight. I worked 12 hours a day, I was earning more than the average call center agent. Started on a life's savings. I bought everything and did everything I wanted. I did not deprive myself of the things I missed out on.

 I claimed it to be my year, and it was! Well it wasn't really as exciting as other people's. But it turned my life around. I am kinda proud of myself for going through all that.

2014, I don't know what's in store for you but I promise you are going to be even better than last year! I won't hold myself back, I'm going to spare myself from all the stress and let the future worry about itself. I am going to let go of the people who don't deserve to me in life! You are going to open doors for me and make my dreams come true. :) Lezdooodizzzzz.

P.S
I will also try to exercise more and try to work on my abs too. :D